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Angela Ashwin

Reflection for  August

WANTING GOD

'If you seek the Lord with all your heart,
you will truly find him.'

Deuteronomy 4:29

Lord, beneath all the concerns on the surface of my mind,
I long to be in closer communion with you.

Even when my desire for you is swamped
by many preoccupations,
I still know in my heart
that I need you more than anything else.

And the Lord replies,
'You are my beloved friend,
and nothing can take that away from you.

I was the one who planted in you this longing for me,
like a seed in the earth.
The very fact that you are turning to me now
shows that your desire for me has been growing,
even if you did not realise it.

Your very desire
is itself prayer.

Remember that I made you in my image.
So your yearning for me
reflects my great longing for you.'

In  silence I reach out to God,
in this mystery of mutual desire.


As the deer longs for flowing streams,
so longs my soul for you, O God.'
(Psalm 42:1)


This is an adaptation of the Meditation 'Wanting God', No 2,  page 18 in 'Wait and Trust',
by Angela Ashwin, published by Eagle,  1997.
This and its sister volume 'Wait and See' are now out of print, but can be bought second hand.
The CD Rom 'Wait and See' is also available from McCrimmons Publishers Ltd.